stagnant

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My college batchmate just got engaged, the first among us Health Sci 2014 kids. It's pretty crazy. He isn't my close friend or anything, but I'm pretty amazed at how people are moving along with their lives. I'm very jealous of my friends who are already working and earning money for themselves, saving up for a solo trip to Vietnam. Wew. Meanwhile, here I am, stuck in my condo every weekend, reading trans after trans and feeling miserable for never knowing enough. 

I knew before entering med school that this would happen, but I didn't think it would really affect me. I guess that when A got engaged today it really hit me that I could be doing a million other things in the world besides study, and yet I chose to study. Welp.

I told Rap about how stagnant I've been feeling, and he replied, "It's okay, we have the rest of our lives to be old people." 

Hmm. 

Comments

  1. JeanSunday, August 23, 2015

    Your last two posts strongly remind me of this reddit comment I saw some weeks ago: https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/3e26ox/what_do_you_do_for_a_living_how_did_you_get_the/ctau4tu

    (It's a doctor recounting his med school experience and all the things he sacrificed, as well as its payoffs in the long run. See the gilded post.)

    I actually admire med students like you because the decision to take up medicine - considering how long it takes to complete the education - seems come from a resolve at a very young age. And your eventual contribution to society is much more tangible.

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  2. UnknownWednesday, August 26, 2015

    Sometimes we don't see how far we've come bec we constantly compare ourselves to other people - their track, pacing, their measures of success, even their dreams. Do not allow yourself to fall into that trap. Dreams take time. :) Go, Aimee! Yakap!

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  3. AnonymousFriday, November 06, 2015

    Depends upon one's perspective. Each trans finished, each module passed, these are steps forward. Your journey may take longer than most, but that's because it's the path you chose to take. Keep reminding yourself of your goals. Remember all you've gone through. Then be amazed at how far you've come.

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