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You know how you can password-protect Word files? Well, I keep a file like that in my laptop to use as a virtual diary. I've been writing in it since the summer of 2009. I mention this because I was going over my old entries yesterday, and I remembered how apathetic I had become during my last year of high school. Take for example this snippet I found, dated Thursday, August 20, 2009, 10:25 pm: My life is so bleak. I wish I could just break away from all of this, you know? Break away... Unhinge myself from this bleakness that I seem to be so lost in. Somehow I wish I could go somewhere to get lost. To wander around. To find myself. And when I come back, I'll be refreshed and shiny and new again. Not like what I am now: so dull. So normal. So... jaded? God. SO BLEAK. So bleak I can’t stand it anymore. I HAVE NO LIFE. Seriously. It’s all just Facebook. It's all just school, and homework, and endless sleep, and unfulfilled dreams. For reasons I can't divulge on the In...